I absolutely love writing. I love the act of it, the character banter in my mind constantly and the finished words I can enjoy reading back. But boy, does life tend to get in the way. And it’s not even that I’m so horribly busy I can’t write, it’s that I don’t make my writing a priority very often.
I like to *tell* myself it’s because I have so many things to do. Working, taking care of my beautiful twins…working some more. But the real answer is that I *let* my writing fall to the side. Actually, I tend to go through stages. A big boost of “writing energy” goes through me at random times during the month and I wonder how I ever lived without writing 1000 words a day. Then it tapers off and I realize I haven’t written in weeks.
Sometimes, I sit down to write and my brain is racing around so quickly, I can’t focus on anything long enough to get it down on paper. Well, coherently anyway. A therapist has suggested ADD – but my explanation wanders a little more down the “Caffeine” route. More precisely, too much of it.
So how does this help me finish a novel? No clue.
Patience, I guess. Maybe understanding…of myself, so that I don’t beat myself into a bloody heap trying to *force* that story out of my head. Taking it one day at a time helps, but I have to make sure the frustration doesn’t overtake me.
It’s NaNo month, too. I signed up the night of the 1st. I was able to write a few 1,000 words in a few days, but it’s not really the type of accountability I seem to need. I’ve also tried having someone else HOLD me accountable, but I think being creative…the whole concept of being creative, is letting it happen. Not forcing it, not doing it for anyone else. So I’ve come to realize, I need to hold myself accountable, IF I enjoy it and it’s something I want to do. I have to just make myself find the time and just do it. (Thank you Nike).
It bothers me that I can sit here and write a blog post, and not channel that energy into writing. But again, I don’t believe it’s a cop-0ut – it’s writing. It may not be moving my manuscript further along, but at least it gets me thinking. 🙂
New Novel Word Count: 16,244